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anything

Posted in poetry, romance with tags , , on August 7, 2009 by gothiclg

i’d give anything

to break this silece and keep

myself from

falling in and out.

 

i would love to

have someone that

i was afraid to let down.

 

i have to have something to

keep myself occuopied through

the times before

destructio takes its wake.

poetry readings

Posted in class/school, friends, life, poetry, travel with tags , on January 23, 2009 by gothiclg

poetry readings are a fun time for many poets. their hosted in some schools as well as other venues. their a good way to spend a friday night and a good way to get comments on your own work.

i first started reading my own poetry for a largre crowd when the denver school of science and technology started the poetry cafe once a month every friday mourning three years ago. the entire school was present there (four hundred plus people): teachers, students, and occasionally visitors to the school. i got a lot of excellent comments and more often than not presented my own work. some comments would come from the litureature/writing department of the school but some also came from the students. thanks to email and laptops (both provided by the school year for the duration) helped with some comments for those who are busier.

now, at another high school (thomas jefferson), i plan attending another reading with a friend of mine. though i expect this to be reasonably smallewr than the swaree im used to attending (and reading at) since its being held in a single classroom i still beleive the reading will be as helpful as it has been for me in the past since there will be an interested audience present due to the time it begins. though the time is late there should be a decent turn out.

Servitude

Posted in life, pagan, poetry with tags , , on January 23, 2009 by gothiclg

I look through my dark

Cloud at the happy world

That always seems to

go on without me.

 

I force my way through

The required death and

Think of my god and

When he might

Come for me.

 

I wonder how painless

My death will be and if

I’ll know I’m

Dieing before it

Ever comes to be.

 

I wonder if I’ll

Be picked for the

Servitude of life

Or again to the

Servitude of love.

the one person made for you

Posted in life, romance with tags , , on January 4, 2009 by gothiclg

ive been thinking a lot already this new year. one of my memories from 2008 was the fall out boy concert in the ogden. one of the things that pete wentz said was that there was a person designed for every person in the world and it was just a matter of finding them. ive been looking for my own perfect person for awhile now without finding them. i dated a few people at my last school (most for short periods of time) and have no luck at my new school despite being half way through the year already. though i’d like to think that i could find them soon (maybe even by the end of 2009, which may be a stretch) it doesnt seem like any of the men ive met this year are any good.

a friend has tried introduceing me to someone who wound up being a stalker and far from dateing material. one guy i met in GSA gropes and head butts me too much to even be considered a candidate and a few others ive met are either taken or not my type. one included being a pot smoker (and grower) who thinks a lot higher of himself than anyone else does, no one seems to even remotely like him (yet somehow he thinks i like him), not to mention he’s managed to get his drivers license suspended for a couple of car accidents and speeding. i try to stay hopeful so far though since people will walk into life unexpectedly, i just hope im destined to meet someone soon and have a lot of luch in the future.

holidays comeing and going.

Posted in life, pagan with tags , , on December 23, 2008 by gothiclg

i just had yule pass by. i felt a strong connection with the universe (as i do with many of the pagan holidays) and had tons of fun despite not being around anyone with simmilar beleifs as me. now christmas is coming up and i already have all of my shopping done. despite loving christmas for years as a child its lost all of its flare now. i no longer care for worldly possetions and would rather just fix what i do have. i had to make a list for the family but it seems a bit lame that they think this holiday still matters to me even after the switch. with no other pagans around me that i know of it makes celebrateing the holidays i do enjoy a little harder. not to mention the new year is coming. though this still has a little of its fun its also lot a lot of its fun. sure, watching the entertainment as the ball drops in new york is always something i can do but theres little else i can do since i cant legally drink. *sigh* i thought these holidays would never have their fun fade but it already has, 18 years in to life. lets hope theres more that comes into life and i’ll have mu luck connecting with others.

where to go from here???

Posted in friends, life, romance, work with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on November 21, 2008 by gothiclg

so…i got laid off recently. the night before this got confirmed one of the guys i worked with told me that a guy i worked with on occasion (and thought was pretty damn sexy) had gotten in a minor wreck that night. i snatched this guys number from said co-worker and texted him to see if he was okay. he turned out to be fine and texted each other back and forth for awhile. this guy’s had an effect on my life, despite us having spoken so little. hell, i finish a test (or class asignment or whatever) and something this guy has said or done (and sometime even just his face) shows up in my mind. lately we’ve been playing phone tag with each others phones (im up during the day, he at night) and adding messages to each others phones. ive never connected with a guy like i have with him and really have been woundering if im being told something that i havent been able to figure out yet. sure, he’s showed up in my poetry some (all of it poetry wondering about weather or not we’re “soulmates”) im still not sure. i just hope i can figure it out eventually and we can talk to something other than each others cell phone voicemail.

darkend day in the sea

Posted in class/school, life, pagan with tags , , , on October 24, 2008 by gothiclg

had a bit of an off day despite all the fun thats happened. its almost like something was always looming over my head that i didnt know about, that i couldnt pick up. sure, i talked to two girls in ceramics about some fun stuff, got to talk to some more friends in biology, got to see a friend i hadnt seen in ages and got to talk to her a little. for whatever reason though i felt like some sort of death was looming over me all day. sure, i know i sense ghosts, ive been able to do it for years, but its seemed to be getting more positive lately. it seemed like this was a bad negative though. sure, i know my school is haunted, ive seen all the orbs in my homecoming pictures and sensed their left energies, and i also know that i dont know why any of them are stuck there considering i havent found any news articles concerning death’s at the school. i cant even say it was one of the ones that belonged to the school, that it wasnt one that followed me from home in an effort to get some of the help it wanted. sure, the gods send them to me and other sensitives for help but i have no way of increaseing my sensitivity more to be able to speak/communicate with them more clearly. it sucks. im going to light my usual candles and incense later and hope that it helps the spirits find their way.